June 27, 2006
Well…I have to get this scripted as I am not well and have not been well for some days.
So…lets see it started on Saturday…..with Rose….some bread, puffs off a cig and then Robins and wine and bread and yelling and then Ellen’s who was sick and the house a dusty mess and then home and then a cig and more sore throat and yucky and then lunch with Joan and Deb, salad lasted to Jennifers which was 10 min breathing that air and then filled up with everyones stuff….okay….you will be better now…..you can see it and know that you are a light weight sometimes and maybe that is why you tend to just stay in because in going out you get stuff and then you are down for a few days…has it been self preservation all along……who knows….
For any and all an none that might read this …please know that I do not like being sick. I will push myself and cover it up until I fall on my face and I will deal with it in the most natural way that I can and I don’t want doctors or hospital to assist me….I can do it on my own with a little help and understanding from my friends….most that I tell do not understand any way so ….the stone is set…
Just go on living and do the best you can with what you have and get on with it…let your body heal on its own and nurture yourself with all you got…don’t expect or intend that any one would understand..maybe a few…but only those that have been there….
I want it to rain ..please so that I can just stand there and let the healing waters from the sky surround me and bathe the toxins off of me and heal me and let me smell the freshness and feel the water on my body….it is so great a feeling .
Mango mania is all over the place and I just would like it to be over…much work. It it windy and I love to listen to it and feel it on my face and body and I would very much just like to live in Wapio a hermit like Linda for the rest of my days….and feel the quiet and solitude that surrounds …that valley is so wonderful…
I was so exhausted last night….and this am …please heal me and do away with this sick feeling….I have much work to do if I am going to stay here and even if I am not I really need to formulate my plans and move forward....and going to Oregon would not be a bad idea…..with the idea of coming back here……
I sure am crying a lot….with no real thought as to why….just let it go….and come or whatever….
More later….
Well…I have to get this scripted as I am not well and have not been well for some days.
So…lets see it started on Saturday…..with Rose….some bread, puffs off a cig and then Robins and wine and bread and yelling and then Ellen’s who was sick and the house a dusty mess and then home and then a cig and more sore throat and yucky and then lunch with Joan and Deb, salad lasted to Jennifers which was 10 min breathing that air and then filled up with everyones stuff….okay….you will be better now…..you can see it and know that you are a light weight sometimes and maybe that is why you tend to just stay in because in going out you get stuff and then you are down for a few days…has it been self preservation all along……who knows….
For any and all an none that might read this …please know that I do not like being sick. I will push myself and cover it up until I fall on my face and I will deal with it in the most natural way that I can and I don’t want doctors or hospital to assist me….I can do it on my own with a little help and understanding from my friends….most that I tell do not understand any way so ….the stone is set…
Just go on living and do the best you can with what you have and get on with it…let your body heal on its own and nurture yourself with all you got…don’t expect or intend that any one would understand..maybe a few…but only those that have been there….
I want it to rain ..please so that I can just stand there and let the healing waters from the sky surround me and bathe the toxins off of me and heal me and let me smell the freshness and feel the water on my body….it is so great a feeling .
Mango mania is all over the place and I just would like it to be over…much work. It it windy and I love to listen to it and feel it on my face and body and I would very much just like to live in Wapio a hermit like Linda for the rest of my days….and feel the quiet and solitude that surrounds …that valley is so wonderful…
I was so exhausted last night….and this am …please heal me and do away with this sick feeling….I have much work to do if I am going to stay here and even if I am not I really need to formulate my plans and move forward....and going to Oregon would not be a bad idea…..with the idea of coming back here……
I sure am crying a lot….with no real thought as to why….just let it go….and come or whatever….
More later….
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